Correction

I decided to review what I had written in my blog and something jumped out at me. I placed a sentence in the last post that could be perceived in a different way than I meant it. I said that there was nothing left for me in Champaign. When I wrote this, I did not mean people. There are many, many people I love there and I cherish the relationships I have created there. That being said, I don't see the kind of things I saw in Spain everyday. I loved Spain so much and I didn't realize quite how much I took everything for advantage. I guess I'll explain that I really don't like how America is formed. Again, don't get me wrong, the ideals are great, but I lose faith that the system is working when I come back and if everytime I flip through the a.m. radio stations I hear about how a government official knew about the Guantanamo Bay torturings. It was bad. Get over it. Obama stopped them and so what. I bet a lot of officials knew about it, but it's in the past and all we can do is stop it from happening.
--Another reason I dislike not just Champaign, but all of the United States is that the public transportation systems are awful. Being back in St. Louis, it is no better.
--I think the reason I'm saying these things is partially because I'm feeling a resentment for being back in the States. Theres that, and also I feel like I may be lashing out like a cornered dog. Before I left Spain I thought that I had everything to look forward to. Now I'm in a completely different situation trying to get a hold on my life which feels like it's on it's way out of my control.
--That's it. I'm done spilling my feelings online. I didn't want to do this, but I felt that if I didn't say everything explicitly I would risk the chance of being mistaken. Thanks again for everyone who has followed this throughout my incredible experience.

Re-entry

Well... I didn't crash and burn. That's the good news. Unfortunately there's a lot that has gone wrong. I went back and was excited all the way home. I didn't really get a reverse culture shock, but I did start noticing things that I wasn't fond of. I realized I started criticizing basically everything. Now maybe I was not living in reality while in Spain, but I really don't like a lot of things. So that I don't offend anyone I won't mention those things here, but one had to do with the amount of food consumed here and what that did to the people. Once I was back, I had really bad jet lag. I think it took me about 4 days to recover. Then I moved to St. Louis. I was so excited to go. I realized that Champaign really had nothing for me anymore. As soon as I got back to Champaign I was just waiting to leave. Now I'm writing this in St. Louis in my apartment for the summer. I have some homework that I'm shirking as well as unpacking. I really miss everyone now, and it's only been about 4 hours. I just feel like a wreck. I'm hoping that by the time I start work tomorrow and get a schedule going I'll get better. Also some friends might start traveling back to St. Louis.
---On a good note, Amanda and I are now going out. On a bad note, Amanda and I were living side by side in a different world, now we're just worlds apart. I've got to admit, it's nice to have her to talk to when it is so lonely here.
---For all of you who have followed this: Thank you. I had a great time and will never regret going, even if it means that the rest of my life will have to live up to that time. Also thank you for your prayers. I'm extremely grateful for having the chance to go and will never forget it.
p.s. Not to tease everyone, but if you check back by the end of summer, hopefully there will be an entry about sevilla and/or loyola (whichever one I forgot).